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Monday, January 21st, 2030
12:14 am
Sometimes I think that im losing my fucking mind. Balance between logic and emotion is often a problem for me.
Sunday, January 20th, 2030
10:20 pm
There will come a time you'll see when love will not break your heart but dismiss your fears. Get over your hill and see what you find there with faith in your heart and flowers in your hair.

Current Mood: calm
Thursday, November 20th, 2025
11:05 pm
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                        This is a friends only journal. Comment to be added if you wish.
                       It may be best that your not of the following if you add me:

 ~close-minded
~racist
~chauvinistic
 ~homophobic

                         etc,etc.... Other then that we should get along fine. :)

Adieu
<3

~Jessica~

Current Mood: content
Tuesday, August 16th, 2022
10:12 pm

                       

This is now a friends only journal.If you would like to be my friend just leave a comment to add you or that you added me. Though  you may not wanna add me if you are:

~ homophobic~

~ racist~

~excessively religious~

~Close minded~

~Get bored reading and hearing people ramble~

lol   Etc etc..................I think that covers it......Sooo yas there you go.   ^-^



Current Mood: mellow
Monday, August 15th, 2022
9:35 am


1-28-05

Current Mood: amused
Sunday, August 14th, 2022
7:30 pm
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Saturday, June 19th, 2021
1:17 am
long time no hear?
yup moved in w/heather...work party party work
heather got evicted..long story
living with will and parents
work party party work sleep
new kittens :)
chaos crazy
breakdown

and reboot...
Made me happy :) but anyways i did figure out the pirate hippie man that did the watercolor rainbow art that me and will found in barefoot bubas was him and talked to him and he brought me a bunch of little art squares of his rainbows which are bitchin and also brought in a flipbook he made with them to show me. Hes pretty awesome. ^.^                   gnite <3

~Jessica~                        RAINBOW Has the same amount of colors as letters...how convenient sorry realized it randomly earlier(...im slow) but thought it was neat... :D
<3


Current Mood: tired
Monday, January 2nd, 2006
9:39 pm
take the psi-q psychic test yourself

Current Mood: weird
Monday, September 26th, 2005
11:48 pm
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Current Mood: content
Saturday, August 20th, 2005
12:11 am
Mercury
.:Mercury:.

"Your personality often has two sides. You
have no trouble taking things in stride, but
you like a peaceful balance in your life. You
have a lot of creativity, especially when it
comes to the written word. You are a great
communicator and are very open to new ideas.
You also have a strong desire to learn."


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Current Mood: amused
Wednesday, August 17th, 2005
9:57 pm
okiday. Lets do this the easier way..

Monday: Went to school, had to work from 4:30-10:30pm. Got home round 11pm, did homework till bout midnight. Finally went to sleep. I was SO EXHAUSTED YOU HAVE NO IDEA. Literally to the point that if I sat down and stood back up again, I could feel a rush of pressure, as if my body was saying Wtf are you doing?!? Sit/lye back down!!

Tuesday: School, sucked up until I found Wills shirt I misplaced earlier in the day. Then I was fine and happy. Then I checked out at 2 from school we went to pick up my lil brother from school and went to the DMV to retake my drivers test. I passed ther damn thing with a 91!! Had the lady this time who was wonderful. I paralled and evrything even though Id had no practice basically and hadnt drove in like a month. The lady was like you look like you know what your doing like youve done this before, about the parking, and then the road test was easy, she relaxed enough to the point she started telling me a story of working in miledgeville giving driving tests and this psycho chick having to drive on the highway and instead of going the direction she was told, went opp, into on coming highway traffic aka 2 big rigs and a small white car. And said how she proceeded to drive the girl back. lmao! But yea her only comments were to remember to use my blinker when I parked bc itd more then likely be off a road.And other then that im fine go get my liscense. I was like.... *dances* So yea I can drive my own damn self to work and stuff now and errands for mum...bleh but oh well. And eventually to conyers..hehe..O:) Anyways I told will and he was all excited, it was funny. SO yea That was yesterday..oh and Hooson and Kurt showed up at school to visit! Hooson hugged me. Twas good, Im glad he got out and stuff but I miss him badly and many others badly as well. :/ And finally last night a lil before nine, Stefan came , we hung around the house some, then went for Coffee at the Waffle House which was good (though i had an energy drink earlier, so i was wored later that night), we talked, caught up on things a lil, then went to walmart to pick up mum some peanuts. And then I got home around..9:45 and called will. We talked till about..10:18 or 10:20 something like that then he went to sleep, and I tried but had too much caffeine so I fell asleep around..12:30am. and then

Today (wednesday): School, boring,but oki I guesse. Amazingly I caught up on all my alg3/trig homework and took a quiz and a test in the same class period, so yay. Once home,talked to will briefly,then we went to Kroger and bought my bro an ice cream cake for his chibi b-day celebration for t/m instead o firday(his actual bday) cus I have to work 4:30-10pm this friday, saw ppl, was goot, came home, turned off the lights and turned on mood music and all my psychadelic lights and all that jazz and slept for a good 2 hrs and 15 minutes. Now Im online...talking to will, catching up on journals and myspace, and being mellow..yay! Shall convince mum to take me after work on saturday to hang with Will cus we didnt get to this past weekend. So yea. 2 more week days..blah. December yet? Its oki. Just..not the same. And Im restless with it all. So grad early will be a good thing hopefully. As long as I dont fail nething. The only class Im worried about that happeneing in is adv econ..cus I simply dont get a good bit o the stuff, and wilson is a wonderful person, but tangents entirely more then she teaches...but we have eoct and a proj in that class worth 1/4 of the grade. o.O Anyways, ooo and i had my senior eval. yesterday everythings oki, in order wooster looked at my grad test results and stuff said I did better then most on that. Made me happy........But yea. Thats about it for now. I have to be going soon. So I shall tty all later

Adieu
<3

~Jessica~


Current Mood: busy
Tuesday, May 17th, 2005
9:15 am
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Current Mood: crappy
Sunday, March 20th, 2005
10:57 pm
Take me Away  ~Lifehouse~
 
This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
This time you burned me with your eyes
You see past all the lies
You take it all away

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

I try to make my way to you
But still I feel so lost
I don't know what else I can do

I've seen it all
And it's never enough
It keeps leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Don't give up on me yet
Don't forget who I am
I know I'm not there yet
But don't let me stay here alone

This time all I want is you
There is no one else
Who can take your place
I've seen enough
And it's never enough
It keeps me leaving me needing you

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away

Take me away
Take me away
I've got nothing left to say
Just take me away
Tuesday, March 15th, 2005
9:14 pm
Ramblings, Recently, Random thoughts, and lyrics..
I can't be losing sleep over this, no, I can't 
And now I cannot stop pacing 
Give me a few hours and I'll have this all sorted out 
If my mind would just stop racing 

'Cause I cannot stand still 
I can't be this unsturdy 
This cannot be happening 

This is over my head but underneath my feet 
'Cause by tomorrow morning I'll have this thing beat 
And everything will be back to the way that it was 
I wish that it was just that easy 

'Cause I'm waiting for tonight 
Then waiting for tomorrow 
And I'm somewhere in between 
Of What is real and just a dream... 
Of What is real and just a dream... 
Of What is real and just a dream... 

Would you catch me if I fall out of what I fell in 
Don't be surprised if I collapse down at your feet again 
I don't want to run away from this 
I know that I just don't need this 

'Cause I cannot stand still 
I can't be this unsturdy 
This cannot be happening 

'Cause I'm waiting for tonight 
Then waiting for tomorrow 
And I'm somewhere in between 
Of What is real and just a dream... 
Of What is real and just a dream... 
Of What is real and just a dream... 
Of What is real and just a dream... 

Don't ye love how everything goes wrong at the same time? It could so easily take place at different varying times. Then thatd just be too easy wouldnt it? Last Night wasnt much better.. They were slightly oki during the day today but just slightly so.. I have too much to do and goings on this week to add emotional stress and inner conflictions to the whole unavoidable mess.   


I watch as the daylight crawls
past the shadows hanging on the walls
It's been a long time since I felt the stain
of yesterday getting in my way

(Chorus)
I'm alive but tell me am I free? 
I got eyes but tell me can I see?
The sky is falling and no one knows 
Well, it shouldn't be hard to believe 
shouldn't be this difficult to breathe 
The sky is falling and no one knows

You leave me hanging on only to catch my breath
I got you and I got nothing left
Don't leave me all alone down here 
with myself and all of my fear

I'm alive but tell me am I free? 
I got eyes but tell me can I see?
The sky is falling and no one knows
Well, it shouldn't be hard to believe
shouldn't be this difficult to breathe
The sky is falling and no one knows
no, no one knows
no one knows

Repeat Chorus

I took a candle bath earlier..just kinda stayed and relaxed with music and the shadowed lighting for about 45 minutes. I wouldve taken a shower and and just sat under the cascade of water until i was lulled into my state of contentment but I did not. Part of this reason being merely based on the fact that the bath handle needs repairing and in so is being difficult..So I merely didnt bother.

Too late to hide
and too tired to care
take what you've left
and forget the rest
take what you see
of what's left of me
you know where I've been
and I don't want to go there again

You're beautiful
you're confusing
you're illogical
you're amazing
and I've seen the world
it's overrated
until you're everything
I have nothing
but empty space

I've been down
this road before
all that I've found
points me right back to you
and I've watched you move
from down below
where do I go from here
I guess I'll find out as I go

You're beautiful
you're confusing
you're illogical
you're amazing
and I've seen the world
it's overrated
until you're everything
I have nothing 
but empty space

You're beautiful
you're confusing
you're illogical
you're amazing
and I've seen the world
it's overrated
until you're everything
I have nothing 
until you're everything
I have nothing
but an empty space

School today was oki I guesse. Had to rush to finish the ecology project I had and then sit through a vedy...pitiful math review for a test we shall receive tommorow that shall prolly take us 2 days to complete. Part of which I was not there for some of the stuff thats on it. So that should be fun to try and bs through. So yes, school was oki..If anything it provided a distraction from the goings on in my personal life that I wish not to think on. Too many aspects. To much conflict. Too much resurfacing of things past. I do not wish for any of this..its just kind of happening all at once. Ive come to a point where Im slowly giving up on things.


Sit down, sit back and watch the days go by 
Are you ever gonna live before you die 
And when things fall apart 
The world has come undone 
Leave it all behind 
Leave the loneliness alone 
You wait forever blind 

So come on and leave the years 
When you watched the days go by 
Come on and leave the fears 
That you were afraid to find 
'Cause while you wait inside 
The days go by 

So all the memories fade 
And the days go by 
Forget the lonely yesterdays in mind 
I know it's never gonna be the way you like 
I know you don't wanna think about the endlessness you find 
You wait forever blind 

So come on and leave the years 
When you watched the days go by 
Come on and leave the fears 
That you were afraid to find 
You're waiting for your time (waiting for your time)
All these days gone wrong 
Who broke your fall 
What a way to learn 

So come on and leave the years 
When you watched the days go by 
Come on and leave the fears 
That you were afraid to find 
Time is passing by (time is passing by)

So come on and leave the years 
When you watched the days go by 
Come on and leave the fears 
That you were afraid to find 
'Cause while you wait inside 
The days go by

I welcome day and night dreams more and more openly each passing day. For in those mere images, I find comfort.. I find happiness and I find a true place of balance. Its a happy place. Thus also partially explaining why I tend to love mediation so much. Pity I havent done it in a while....Tis something I must most definately remedy...

In a way I appear like im in a very peaceful mood. Then again one of my best and worse aspects or, personality quirks rather...is my ability to appear the absolute antithesis of how I really am. Only those few I may decide to talk with things about or talk to at all when Im in these moods may know that Im actually not as content as I appear at the moment. *shrugs*  Right now I have a select few that are even half way keeping up with things. People I talk to everyday at school and or online, I make the attempt to talk at least. Everyone else for the moment is partially blocked out. Sometimes literally. I apologize for this. Im trying to improve. Things will ger sorted out. Right now is just..difficult. I still care for you all and am here if ye need me. Regardless of my random odd mind states.

Im sorry as well if this is kind of long and pointless..I just feel like rambling in here..which is what im pretty much doing. So I shall stop it there. the night is growing weary and its still rather early. I shall update again soon. Until then, everyone take care.

Flowers are blowing in the wind
and I can see the sun
setting on the hill
it's almost gone and the
hills are greener than I've ever seen
and this feels too real to be
just another dream 

now don't let me leave this moment
hold me in this place
where everything is clearer
than of all before
and everything makes sense 

and you say
stand on the edge and don't be afraid to fall
take a breath and tell me what you see
and you say
stand on the edge and don't be afraid to fall
take a breath and tell me what you see 

as we sat down by the water
in my mind I felt
a gentle breeze blow
soft against my face and we
talked for hours
it didn't seem to matter what about
as long as I was there with you 

yeah you showed me what
it is to believe in something greater than I
can understand
yeah you showed me what
it is to believe 

and you say
stand on the edge and don't be afraid to fall
take a breath and tell me what you see
and you say
stand on the edge and tomorrow don't close your eyes
take a look around you
and tell me what you see
tell me what you see
tell me what you see 

and you say
stand on the edge and don't be afraid to fall
take a breath and tell me what you see
and you say
stand on the edge and don't be afraid to fall
take a breath and tell me what you see
tell me what you see
tell me what you see 

and you say
stand on the edge and don't be afraid to fall
take a breath and tell me what you see
and you say
stand on the edge and  tomorrow don't close your eyes
take a look around you
and tell me what you see
tell me what you see
tell me what you see
tell me what you see

Adieu

<3



Current Mood: discontent
Monday, February 14th, 2005
10:01 am

 

'ello lovelys.  Im in first block. Its freezing in here.  Well last night I got back on AIM for the first in a half a week or a lil longer. Thas an uber long time for me. Oh well. Nonetheless. This week will continue and upon reachiong the much sought after weekend we shall have a following week break. *Joy commences* So yay for that. Anyways, todays Valentine's Day. Eh, just another day for me. I shall go home tonight and do basically what I do everyday. Nothing special. But I can live with that..Anyways, Im about to leave class so If anything interesting happens I shall continue this post later tonight.

<3

Adieu

Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
9:29 pm
This is so....great. :P


You Belong in 1967



1967





If you scored...

1950 - 1959: You're fun loving, romantic, and more than a little innocent. See you at the drive in!

1960 - 1969: You are a free spirit with a huge heart. Love, peace, and happiness rule - oh, and drugs too.

1970 - 1979: Bold and brash, you take life by the horns. Whether you're partying or protesting, you give it your all!

1980 - 1989: Wild, over the top, and just a little bit cheesy. You're colorful at night - and successful during the day.

1990 - 1999: With you anything goes! You're grunge one day, ghetto fabulous the next. It's all good!




Current Mood: amused
Sunday, January 30th, 2005
8:59 pm
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Current Mood: bored
Thursday, January 20th, 2005
9:54 am
You scored as Keith Moon.

</td>

Keith Moon

43%

John Lennon

40%

Jimi Hendrix

28%

Syd Vicious

25%

Jim Morrison

18%

Which Famous Dead musician are You?
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You scored as water faerie. you are a water faerie,you are sadistic at times,and have few friends your always sad for some reson or a nother you love to dance in the rain and be in you little world and few people understand you, you are offen pestmistic about things,overall you like to be your self but can't seem to find it inside, you feel as if you don't belong here and liveing a lie,but you know that you can keep pretending untile you find yourslef and were you really belong

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water faerie

67%

loveing faerie

58%

opmistic faerie

46%

wind faerie

46%

ice faerie

21%

evil faerie

17%

what faerie will you be?
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You scored as Vampire. You are a vampire dead and lost. You love pain agony and death

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Vampire

44%

The reaper

38%

Ware wolf

38%

Which creature of death are you?
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Sunday, October 3rd, 2004
9:06 pm

I know I know I need to update. Well asuming this shows up on friends pages b/c It has been acting funny and randomly deciding not to show up on friends pages, then this should be interesting.  I have an update coming after this with pictures from random things. Football game, six flags, ppls house, just random stuff..........but yea. Well for an update on everything else.  Last weekend me, tiffany, jessica m, kimara, heather and griffin went to the shakespeare tav to volunteer and bus tables, this was a bit hectic and hard to smile so much but actually i think waitressing would be alot less hard than i thought. In return we got to see a free show "Much Ado ABout Nothin"   which rocked! And free drinks. lol anyways O and griffin took us for pizza before hand at this Gypsy restaurant/ club..........*laughs* yea anyways then for a play update.  "The play is mentally retarded."~

randomimplosion ~   ......Thats all im saying besides, grr to it, its gonna suck , Im pretty sure I wont have to perform it at comp, this makes me happy. But other than to go see Chicago this tuesday and get on the bus......I refuse 100% to step within 50ft of the school, and nothing via the 10 commandements, God, or the blackest disease can make me do it without my consent.  >-<  SO there.    But yea.    other than that.........Im on break......there is joy and much needed rest and speck rehablitation in break. So henceforth there is happiness.    :P   But yas thats about it So I shall tty all later.    Enjoy your breaks, and Have a g'night and sleep well!

Adieu,

Love Always,

    ~Jessica~

Friday, October 1st, 2004
1:40 pm
What Will Be Your Overly Melodramatic Death? by Celaeno
Name:
Gender:
Are you beautiful?
Your death: Crushed by an elephant between two virgins at the moment of climax.
Your parting words: "Never let go!"
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Age
Your Icon
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